My own mom was a big part of my life and I'm grateful we were never forced to go through the tribulations Devin and his mother face in this short story.
Thanks for reading and Happy Mother's Day!
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The Homecoming
by JC Hemphill
The house was quiet--
No.
It was noisy.
There had been a lull between
songs when Devin returned home from school and now Elvis' Blue Suede Shoes
was blaring over the stereo. All the shades were drawn and the lights were off
except for a single yellow glow at the top of the stairs. His mother's voice
filtered down through the music, her lyrics a slurred step behind the King's.
She was drunk.
Dad would've said she was as
drunk as a skunk. Or was it a monk? He couldn't remember. He'd have to ask Dad
when he saw him.
Devin sighed and went to the
kitchen for a glass of milk. It was unusual for her to be drinking this early
in the day--she usually waited until after dinner to open the wine--the risk of getting another DUI on the way to McDonald's was too great--but today was an
unusual day. To top it off, she wasn't drinking wine. According to the
half-empty bottle on the kitchen counter, she was drinking whiskey. Knob Creek,
by the label. He recognized the honey-colored bottle from Dad's old stash, except
he remembered it being full with the seal intact.
A thought bloomed: the bottle,
which had been locked away in the museum that was Dad's study, was out while
Mother was upstairs, undoubtedly dancing in front of the mirror with a lowball
glass in one hand as she belted "Go cat, go."
Which meant there was a good
chance she had left the study door unlocked.
As the track changed from the
upbeat Blue Suede Shoes to the crooning Heartbreak Hotel, the
atmosphere shifting from motivated to melancholic, Devin made his way toward the
study. A buzz of excitement filled him when he saw the door sitting open.
Mother hadn't let him enter the study in a long time. Not since she had
caught him using the old ham radio to contact the aliens. He'd been twisting
the dials as he'd watched Dad do, trying to find the right frequency to
communicate with the mothership. All he wanted was to ask them to bring Dad
back. He'd trade all his toys and even his bike, a real fast one with good
tires, but Mother wasn't having it. She had stormed into the room, eyes redder than the Devil's buttocks, snatched him by the arm, and
dragged him out.
The bruises healed in a couple of
days, but Devin would always remember her in this way. It was the moment she
had changed from an ally to a speed bump in the road to finding Dad.
Devin stepped into the room. The
desk and bookshelves were shadowed outlines. Even in the dark it seemed
familiar. Being in there reminded him of the feeling he got on their family
trip to Disneyworld. Although Devin had never been to Disney before, he had
instantly felt a part of that jubilant place. Not that there was anything
jubilant about the study, but he received that same tingling sensation of being
connected to a place he knew he was only visiting. It would end, this visit,
this feeling, and that made the joy sad in a way.
"Hey," a sharp voice
said from behind him. "What're you doin home already?" Devin turned
to face his mother. She stood in the hallway with one strap of her halter-top hanging
off her shoulder. Her white jeans looked wet at the bottom as if she'd waded
through a flood to get there. "And what're you doin in that room?
Huh?" She cantered forward, paused, and leaned against the wall to keep
the world from pitching her sideways. She looked up at him, her face twisted in
something between anger and concern.
"I ..." Devin said, unable
to think of anything else to add.
"Yeah? You what?" She
tilted her head, waiting for a reply.
"I ... um ... saw the door
open. I was just going to close it for you."
"Pssh. Don't lie. You're
lying. I can tell. A mother can always tell when her boy is fibbing."
Devin looked away. His cheeks and
ears felt hot. "I'm sorry."
She didn't reply. He sensed her
presence, heard her feet shifting. He expected the admonishment to persist, but
it didn't. His mother was quiet and Devin thought that was the worst possible
response. Taking the words from her was no small thing and it usually meant the
rage welling inside was so great she had to remain speechless to contain it.
Devin risked a glance in her
direction. Her face was red, but not with anger. She was crying. Silently. She pressed
against the wall and for a second Devin thought she might collapse.
"Mother?" he whispered.
Her crying became an audible sob.
She tried to speak, but only a few words made sense, "I ... sorry ...
father ...", and then her entire body trembled as if a phantom had grabbed
hold and started shaking until the crying became so intense that Devin couldn't
hear Elvis anymore. "Devin," was the last word he made out before she
began a slow slide down the wall to the floor.
"I'm sorry. I won't go in
there again. I was curious, is all." Devin closed the door and crouched
before his broken mother. Being the adult came easily now. "It's okay,
Mom."
The crying slowed. She lifted her
face, revealing twin streams of tears. "Mom. You called me Mom. Always
Mother, never Mom. You ... you ..."
Her face twisted as she tried to
hold back another pang of grief.
"I know," Devin said.
He thought about reaching out and touching her face the way Dad used to.
Whenever she was sad, he would run the back of his hand down her cheek and
pinch the tip of her chin. Devin almost did just that, had his hand out to do
it and everything. But he stopped at the last second. Something like that, on
this day, wouldn't help. It would only make her remember.
He wished he could somehow pass
his faith to her. That way, she too would understand that this year, this
anniversary, would be the one. It was October nineteenth after all, two years
to the day, and something deep inside told Devin that this time, unlike last
year, Dad would be coming back. It was a homecoming and deserved to be treated
as such. They should be renting all the action movies he'd missed over the last
two years and putting up Welcome Home banners and calling the local news
channels so they could do a special report like they did for returning
soldiers.
If only she had seen what he had
seen.
"Just wait," Devin
said. "He's coming back. I promise."
A major shift occurred on her
face.
"No, Devin," she spit,
his name becoming a curse word. "He ain't. He ain't never, never, never
coming back. That deadbeat ran out on me 'cause he hated it here. Never told
you that, but your daddy always thought I was holding him back, like he was
destined for something great but as long as I held him chained here, he would
never amount to more than a sack full of dog shit." She scrambled to her
feet, the only evidence of her tears being the streaks in her mascara. "'Cause'a
me, Devin! And 'cause'a you. I was the chain and you were the lock and
he busted free and he ain't coming back. And where is he now? The cover of Forbes?
Curing cancer? Shoot no. I bet he's in a gutter someplace." Her face
looked to be on the verge of exploding. "I just bet that cockroach is dead."
A rusty nail was driven into
Devin's heart.
"That's not true," he screamed, swelling with so much raw emotion he had no choice but to pop. "Aliens took him and he's coming back. Tonight." He turned to run away but stopped. With his hands balled into small fists, an adolescent rage boiling inside, he twisted back around and, simply because he knew she hated the word so much, always said it made him sound stupid, added: "Duh, Mother. Duh."
"That's not true," he screamed, swelling with so much raw emotion he had no choice but to pop. "Aliens took him and he's coming back. Tonight." He turned to run away but stopped. With his hands balled into small fists, an adolescent rage boiling inside, he twisted back around and, simply because he knew she hated the word so much, always said it made him sound stupid, added: "Duh, Mother. Duh."
"There's no aliens." A wave of booze-laden air accompanied her response. "You
made all that up. Even doctor Redman said so. You're coping, is all; it's a
mechanism. Your father left us for a better life and he ain't coming back. Get.
Used. To. It."
She twirled around and stormed
toward the kitchen. She grabbed the whiskey bottle as she turned and
disappeared into the living room. Elvis' voice loudened--I Got Stung--followed
by the hollow sound of her stomping up the stairs.
And then it happened, the
inevitable: Devin cried. His only consolation was the fact that today was the
day. It was the two-year anniversary and Dad was coming home. He had to be.
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The wind was strong, moving not
just the leaves on the ground, but ripping healthy ones from limbs, violently
pitching them on a night flight through the cloudless sky.
This was definitely the night.
The energy was perfect. The hour, the location--his backyard--even the Denver
Broncos ball cap he'd been wearing the night they took Dad.
Devin glanced back at his house
and remembered that night. He'd fallen asleep on the couch waiting for Dad to
come home. The wind had awakened him. It was so loud, whipping and wailing
and beating against the windows. Mother had been
upstairs in bed. Their room faced the front yard so she hadn't seen the lights
or heard the shouting. And then it was over. The wind died, the spotlights blinked
off, and Dad was gone, vacuumed into the sky.
The worst year of his short life
had begun that night--the misery of losing his father, the trauma of seeing it
happen, the temporary loss of hearing that he attributed to the wind but
doctors said was a 'mental numbing of the senses.'
Eventually the trauma subsided
into a compact ball within and the misery slid away, justified to the knowledge
that the aliens would return his dad some day.
And, eventually, his hearing
returned.
It was his mother who didn't heal.
As he gazed at the house, white
against the dark, a few lights shining through the windows in clean yellow
squares on the lawn, he got the sense that this was the night she finally
improved. Once Dad came down, deposited on the very lawn he was stolen from, a
bit weary but in fine shape overall, she would never be sad again or need to
drink just to fake a smile again. She would be cured; they all would, a family
of three.
Devin turned away from the house
and watched the sky. There was so much space out there--so many stars, so many
worlds, so many possibilities. The entire of space seemed to echo of those
possibilities. If another life form from another planet could travel across the
universe to take his dad away, why couldn't those same creatures bring him
back? It shouldn't be too much trouble for an advanced species. They were
always here, always taking people to study, so why not stop by exactly two
years later to return what didn't belong to them? Why not right a wrong?
The wind intensified.
Yes. The energy was perfect. This
is how he remembered that night.
After the wind picked up, a
distant red light had appeared, growing larger by the second as if Mars was
hurtling toward Earth, filling the sky, inch by inch until it came to a halting
stop above him. This new red ceiling on the world had grown bright, casting
white spotlights over his yard, searching, searching, searching until they
found what they wanted. The lights zeroed in on Dad who was standing at the
back of the yard. It appeared that he had just climbed the fence and dropped onto
their side of the grass a second before the lights found him. Fear, then awe
had crossed Dad's face. He looked trapped. He reached an arm out, yelled
something, some final message that was lost to the wind, and he was rising,
rising into the lights and then ... nothing.
Dad was gone.
Devin searched the sky for that
red light. There was none. He checked his watch. 11:16. One minute past the
anniversary.
He was going to cry again. He
felt it coming along with an overwhelming sense that he had been tricked. It
was the fool's feeling, the sudden realization that his core beliefs were
fraudulent and that everything he had hoped and stood for was nothing but a mirage
in a well textured delusion.
But the tears stopped, because,
after all, there it was: the red light--a speck, a power indicator seen from afar,
a tiny symbol of sanity resolved. His heart ached to do backflips and
frontflips and endzone dances and everything else happy things do. He started
shouting at the growing light, waving his arms, guiding it to his yard in case
they forgot where he lived. The wind grew stronger, louder, beating the planet
with hurricane force. It was frenzied, deafening, and he wondered if he would
lose his hearing this time. His clothes whipped to one side, pulling against
his bony frame. A single spotlight, white, struck out, scanning the yard behind
his house and the one next to it and a few others before swinging to his.
"Yes, that's it," he yelled. "Here, here. It's this one. Drop
him here." He was smiling; so happy, so proud. They came back. They
actually came back. Dad was almost here. The aliens wanted to right a wrong.
They had morals. They were good and good--the real stuff, not the
fake sitcom stuff--was a rare commodity. It only made sense that an advanced
species would know better. What else would they be but good?
Devin stopped jumping and
yelling. His arms dropped, his shoulders sagged. The shaft of light moved on, touching
his neighbor's yard before vanishing beyond his house.
The wind settled.
A pair of spotlights burst to
life, this time from the floodlights on the side of the house. The sliding
glass door from the kitchen opened and his mother stepped out. She had changed.
Instead of a halter-top and white jeans she was wearing a dress with a flower
print and padded shoulders.
"Devin, honey," she
called as she crossed the lawn to him. "Are you okay? I heard
yelling."
Devin turned around and faced the
night sky. He remained silent, focusing everything he had on willing the
spacecraft to come back. Why had it moved on? They saw that this was the spot,
so where was Dad? Where? Why? Please aliens, please, come back. Bring him back
to me. Please...
Tears, hot and blurring, swelled
in his eyes.
"Honey," his mother
said behind him. Her hands rested on his shoulders. "What happened?"
Devin heard her, but his answer
was slow coming. Too many emotions battled for attention, too many
thoughts and questions fogged his mind. But then the answer came and he spoke
it with a brittle voice: "A police helicopter flew over the house."
He paused to absorb this. The clarity of hindsight made his stomach clench.
"I thought it was the aliens bringing Dad back. It wasn't."
Devin unconsciously recoiled from
his mother's touch. Two years worth of deferred agony was budding inside him,
made tenfold by the fool's feeling.
"Hey," his mother said.
He bent his neck back to look up at her face. She smelled clean. Looked it, too.
Her hands on his shoulders were warm. And most surprising of all, when she
spoke, it was with a steady voice, the pre-dinner-and-drinks voice. She'd done
a lot to clean herself up in the last seven hours. "I remembered
something. Seeing you in the study, I mean. It got me thinking. About you
climbing around in there when your dad wasn't home. You'd play with his things
and pretend you were him. You'd say things like..." The edge of her smile
quivered. Emotion became a tangible thing in her
voice. "You'd say ... say things like 'Come in breaker one-nine, this ...
this is Big Hoss on the airwaves, c-come back.' And darn it if it wasn't the
... the cutest thing. I'd forgotten all about that. Locked the memory away with everything else in that room. I wouldn't expect you to
remember, but ... I don't know."
She no longer appeared happy or sad. It was shame that colored her face.
She no longer appeared happy or sad. It was shame that colored her face.
Part of Devin wanted to look
away, pretend he wasn't hearing her. But he couldn't. It was her--Mom. Finally. After two years, she had returned.
She wiped the tears from her eyes
and shrugged. "Another thing I realized: there's always next year. Right?
I mean ... maybe they're not bringing him back until next year. You know what
they say:" she squeezed his shoulders tenderly, "third year's the
charm."
His eyes went wide.
Those words were true. Tonight was wrong. It was next year. And
besides. The power of three sounded like something an alien would live by. "You're
right. What was I thinking? It's not this year. It's next year." He
threw up his hands and shook his head as if he'd made a simple math mistake.
"Yeah," she said, her
voice warm, her smile even warmer. "Duh, Devin." After a long moment
of staring skyward together, she added, "And you know ... if he don't make
it back then at least I'll be waiting here with you. From now on, aliens or no
aliens, Dad or no Dad, I'll be right here. I promise you that."
Devin didn't object when she
wrapped her arms around him and squeezed. They stood that way for several
minutes, so warm and confortable, each of them searching the stars, finding
their own constellations among the speckled dark, and, for once, thinking of
the future instead of the past.
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